Starting out slow.

I love the fact that people can come together, no matter their circumstances, no matter their race, their gender, and worship God. This idea of being able to move past my circumstances but not forgetting has been really important to me in moving forward. I had the opportunity recently to play in the music team for a women's convention. The team was made up of random musicians from all different domination's, all there for one purpose, to worship God. It was a great day of worship and I was so privileged to be apart of it. We don't know whats going on for each other, but when we come together like that, it doesn't matter, what matters is focusing on God, and what a focus!

On Monday night we started recording my E.P! I think it might take a while, but good things come to those who wait, right? I like the idea of doing this "in house" if you will. To be honest, I am pretty scared, and I have no idea what I am going to do once it is recorded, but hey we will cross that bridge when we get there!

 The future scares me, I would think it probably scares most people. Sometimes you have to take risks, sometimes you have to put yourself on the front line, prepared to be fired at. I am pretty scared of that place, especially when the stuff I am writing is coming from the deepest part of me, waiting to be exposed. I would hope that one day someone will send me a letter, or write me a twitter message, or a facebook wall post telling me that it was all worth it. We all experience trials and hard stuff in our lives, the last 2 months of my life are a testament to that, but it's what you get out of that, that matters. Well I reckon anyway!


Deuteronomy 31:8
The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.


Grace and Peace, Everyone!

Passion.

Sometimes things change that you never ever thought would. Suddenly what once was normal, isn't. Suddenly you have to redefine what was a life time of normal.

It's funny how God prepares you for things, but what's more funny, is when you start realising, or thinking... "I think God is preparing me for something." That happened to me. I recently lost something big in my life, someone really important to me. But the day before it all happened, I had coffee with a dear friend and mentor and told her that I believed God was preparing me for something. 2 days before that, I wrote a new song called "Reasons" (go figure). It's funny how God works it all out.

Its been a little over a month, but today was the first day I managed to pick up my guitar and play that song Reasons. I had really struggled to even open the case to my guitar, and for those who know me well, know that I love my guitar. But when big things like this happen, suddenly those things don't matter like they used to. Perspective is given. I then proceeded to play Paradox, then Trust Me Now. I then got angry, sad then passionate. It was a really weird couple of hours! I was angry that God had written how I was going to handle this situation into songs I had written as far back as a year ago. Passion. A emotion I hadn't felt for a while. It suddenly become real. All of it. I have always known God placed a gift of music on me, but this was more. I have been talking about getting the songs out there, heck this whole blog is about that journey, but this feeling, this was different. If I can help one person through a situation like mine, then my music has made a difference. That is what it is about for me.

So here begins my little pledge, if you will. I have the equipment to record at home. That stuff of perspective I was talking about earlier, here is where it really comes in. I don't care about getting the best quality recording available, I care about getting the message God gave me when I needed it, to the people that need it in their moment of "being on the ground". I'm going to try and get my songs down into an E.P. as quickly as possible with some help from my amazing and trusty handy dandy techno-wiz friends! I will put all the lyrics on my Facebook page in PDF form so that anyone can get the words and give them to someone.

It's amazing how God works in your time of need.

Hebrews 13:5

Grace and Peace Everyone!